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What if you had won already and you didn't know it.

I have been gone for a minute got busy baking Kimskakery is doing amazing. It is amazing how one part of your life can be going so good and the other parts are all going to hell. I have to admit being a control freak so if it has my name on it then it I have had my hand on it.

I know that the title of the blog is crazy but what if it was true. What if you had already won and you didn't know it. What if everything you wanted was in arms reach and you blew it. I have seen it with my own eyes and it is a bad situation. To me it reminds that in the Bible God said be still and know that I am God.

I told me son if he changed his circle he would change his circumstances. He said that he and his friends are all trying to make it and I asked what does that look like,because everyone in your circle should be growing and evolving and moving on. Just as in the Bible God shall separate the wheat from the tare. Not everyone who starts with you will finish with you. And you have to be ok with that.  I pray that he gets what I am saying be I know at 17 he has tunnel vision and I have global vision.

I am having to pick and choose what and who I allow in my life. See I keep choosing Kim. I am serious about Kim 2.0

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