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Loving me more than I Love anyone else.

This is Kim 2.0 and I am trying to see things differently and handle people differently. My son has been missing since 10/8 with no idea as to where he is and who he is with. As a Mother it breaks my heart to see the path my cubs is going down and knowledge that he will not allow me to help him. How do you reconcile loving my son my first born from a distance. Taking a stand that I love with all my heart but before I loved you I loved me. I also love my daughter and my Momma who are hurting as well. I have to say God you got and I am going to chill.

The reason I started this blog was to help someone to know that they are not alone. That you can be the best parent you know how and that you kid or kids will grow up and do things that you don't agree with. They are growing into young adults and if they make good choices you support them and if they make bad choices then you also support them. When all of this first started no one could tell me that almost 2 years later and 14 times running away that I would here in this place. But I am here and to whoever is reading this you are not alone. You don't have the only cub not doing the things you taught them. You did your best and that you are enough.

But just know that it took way to many nights crying and days in darkness to get here. People are mean and nasty and they say crazy shit and make assumptions when they have never walked a day in your shoes and might have lost there minds if they had tried. You see I am stronger than I thought and loved more than I knew. The joy I have the world didn't give me and they can't take it away.

In the midst of all of this I have started a baking business never knew I could but God took one thing and gave me a new joy and outlet. It is true God will open doors no man can close and give you peace that no man can understand.  So I have learned so much about who I am that I thought I was grown but God had some more growing for me to do.

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Unknown said…
Kim I am so sorry that you have to go through this kind of pain. I really hope that everything turns around for you soon.
October 21, 2016 at 8:27 AM
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