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Time to call BS on some stuff.

I am not ashamed of my journey it has made me a strong person. I am not going to let anyone dim my light so that they can shine. I love this new version of me she has a hustle that I have never seen. I know that this is just the beginning not being arrogant but I feel that God is saying yes in my life.

Now let's not get is twisted like people on Facebook who lead you to believe that their life is perfect. The marriage or relationship and kids are amazing. That is not my story.  My son has gone off course and no one knows where he is,but I have to be okay with what he is doing in his life. God let me see that not only am I not the only Mother having issues with my child but that I have to learn how to love him from a distance.
On this part of my journey everyone can not come with me. In the Bible it is called separating the wheat from the tare. I have said to God if I have to do this alone with just God then I will. Not perfect but honest enough to say that part of my life is amazing but the other part that has always take the bulk of my time is broken. It is so broken that Kim in my flesh can not fix. I have to say God I lay it at your feet. And I know that when he fixes it they way He wants and not what I want or how I think it should be then it will be well with my soul.

I love my children but I gave them my life and they got a life and no longer need me as much. They are making decisions that will shape their own paths in life. And as a true believer in God I have to know that I have given them a foundation that they will be able to use.

This is my season to grow to change to walk away from things that I used to make the old Kim happy and I am not ashamed nor will I hide. You see I don't live my life to make other people feel like I am better than them or I have more than them. Folks get caught of in labels. And don't get me wrong I love a good purse and I love a good sneaker I am a sneaker kind of girl. And I love nice clothes. But if you hide behind label like they are shields then who are you when you can no longer afford them?. I am me unapologetic happy and focused.

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