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I will take small victories

On my last blog people reached out some to uplift and others to judge. I felt judge by so many people and should have felt uplifted. Then I remembered that only God can judge and that the people who called to judge never called to other to help or asked how they could help so why the hell do I or did I care what "they" said.

When I tell you that God will show up just when you need him to show you that he has indeed not forgotten about you. Today Jordan gave her life to God. She has been through so much but for her to make the a decision at 14 that many people grown people struggle with helped me see that I am winning.  I have not won the war but the small victories are just as important.

I have spent so much time consumed by the struggles of Zachary that I have been less than the mother she deserved.  I have been praying that God would cover her and keep her safe and make sure she was successful and God has been faithful.

So if God can watch over and protect one of my children then why would he not do the same for Zachary. The battle is not over got letters that CMS is trying to prosecute me for his truancy. How can I make him go to school when it is obvious I can't make me stay home. But in this to I shall bless the Lord.

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Ericka said…
I think 14 is a good age to know what she truly wants. I commend you for not pushing her and letting her make her own decision when the time is right for her.
November 13, 2016 at 8:29 PM
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