Single Mom at War!

Hello I hope everyone is having a goof Friday. If you have been reading my blog you know by know that the bulk of my blog is about my and all that our family has gone threw in 2015 and 2016. I wanted to do this so that I could help someone who may have a son or a daughter who may be going threw what I am. We all need community and the would of Facebook ,Instagram  &Twitter would have you thinking you are all alone because everyone if pretty, fly and fabulous. On Facebook no one  tells you the real story of the life or raising teenager. Well stick with me and I tell you the truth and make plain just how I like my drinks straight no chaser. I have decided that Lupus will not kill me and neither will my kids stressing me out. To the point that my heart explodes or my blood pressure is so high that I have stroke, I have not worked in 4 years and I have wanted to always do more that be at home and be sick. But it seems that my health was never in a place that would allow...

Hello folks its me I feel like we are old friends some of the things that I have shared here I have never had the courage to speak with some of my best and closet friends. But sitting here in the comfort of my room and I feel ok to be free and to honest and to tell the story because no one could have prepared me for what I was about to go threw. Fall was my favorite time of the year. The warm days and cool night when a light jacket is needed if sunset caught you outside. And of course I am a Carolina girl so Football and friends were always on tap. I had been planning on going to my College Homecoming in 2015 because since in 2014 I was in congestive heart failure and I was on bed rest walking to the bathroom left me winded and my Mother was having  to take care of my kids on the day to day things. I was scared that I was going to die because my Father had congestive heart failure and he died at 57. So the fear was real the Doctor had taken away my driving privileges so I was ext...

I have not blogged in a couple of days because my Lupus was on ten. I had not been able to walk for like four days and I was in so much pain that I could not even sit up. I am not a go to the hospital person especially after I was diagnosed with Lupus I felt like I was always either at the hospital or at the Doctor. So Sunday night when my Mom asked me if I wanted to go we planned it so Monday morning I woke up with one thing on my mind. I was headed to the hospital to get some kind of relief. The blood pressure was 197/137 and that was after they had taken it a couple of times. But pain will cause all kinds of problems in your body and life. I have gotten so use to putting myself on the back burner that I have left my health to chance far more times than I can to think about. This blog is about the end of a hard summer and my hopes that a new school year would bring about some growth and much needed changed on my son. However I was in for a rude awaking I never understood w...

On this journey my hope to help another Mother somewhere to know that she is not the only on struggling with a child who will not do what is right. I was in a place that I had never been and I was all alone my friends and family tried to support me and give me some encouragement. But this was something that no one I knew had ever been thru. Sure as teenagers we all had pushed the limits and test our Parents patience but my son was in a class all by himself and I was in the dark with no flashlight.   It has become a situation that he was running away every month and was staying gone for days at a time. I was calling the police who really never looked for him they took the report and moved on. By this time I was becoming very weary in my faith and that I was so sad that I could not seem to find happiness in the things that had in the past brought me so much joy. I had stopped cooking and baking was like only if I had no other choice. I was becoming more isolated because I was...