My son has been officially missing for over 30 days. And let's tell the truth he is 17 and a young black man no one is looking for him. The odds have been stacked against him since birth born to a single Mother with a absent Father. However he is still my son and he means the world to me. He is living with people I don't know know and places that I have no idea about. Where do these people come from that don't say let's call your Mother and let her know that you are safe. People in Charlotte are getting killed everyday and I live with that fear daily. But in the era of Facebook lies and Snap chat 24 hour cycle and Instagram celebrity nothing is real.
I have to pray and love him and brace myself for what comes next. I have to love him enough to let him at 17 make these choices and pray that God will give him the Grace and time to fix the error of his ways. He not only needs to mend the relationship with me but with my Mother and his Sister who have both been hurt.
No one one could have told me that this is where I would be. My friends are doing college tours and their kids are taking the SAT. I want to order my son's cap and gown and his class ring and see his excitement about going to the mail box and see what school accepted him. But that is not the path my son is on. And as his Mother it breaks m7heart life is hard and with no education and no life skills it only gets harder. I know I am not the only one going threw this but I guess I am the only one willing to be transparent and to stand in truth. People who look at my son and judge me when is the last time you looked at your own shit and really took inventory.
Life is so short and nothing is promised. Death will come for us all but no man knows the hour. So show people you love them. Tell people you love. Become the best version of you that you can be. Keep God at the center and not on layaway. You see I know that if I died today that my soul is not right but I will pray that if God gives me the chance to wake up tomorrow then I will try my best to live on purpose and get my soul right. I am not alone but who will stand up and tell the truth.
I have to pray and love him and brace myself for what comes next. I have to love him enough to let him at 17 make these choices and pray that God will give him the Grace and time to fix the error of his ways. He not only needs to mend the relationship with me but with my Mother and his Sister who have both been hurt.
No one one could have told me that this is where I would be. My friends are doing college tours and their kids are taking the SAT. I want to order my son's cap and gown and his class ring and see his excitement about going to the mail box and see what school accepted him. But that is not the path my son is on. And as his Mother it breaks m7heart life is hard and with no education and no life skills it only gets harder. I know I am not the only one going threw this but I guess I am the only one willing to be transparent and to stand in truth. People who look at my son and judge me when is the last time you looked at your own shit and really took inventory.
Life is so short and nothing is promised. Death will come for us all but no man knows the hour. So show people you love them. Tell people you love. Become the best version of you that you can be. Keep God at the center and not on layaway. You see I know that if I died today that my soul is not right but I will pray that if God gives me the chance to wake up tomorrow then I will try my best to live on purpose and get my soul right. I am not alone but who will stand up and tell the truth.
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