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I had a stroke at 41 pt.1

Wow time moves fast my last post was on 12/28/2016 & on 12/30/2016 I had a stroke. I was baking one cake about to come out of the oven and one about to go in. I had been  up since about 6:30 didn't really feel well but with Lupus I don't ever wake feeling like 100%. So I pressed my way and got to work. I am the worse boss ever by the way. I was baking as my family started to wake up and go about the morning chores and task that I had outlined the night before. My son was still home and the house had kind of settled down from his return this time.

I was trying to clean up my kitchen when I started to see double so I told Jordan to bring me some chocolate and a soda. The high caffeine content will help if a migraine is coming on. I went to the sink to wash dishes and I was talking to Zach and could not find the words to finish my sentences and he was having to finish them for me. And then I could not speak at all it was like I was frozen. Zach yelled to my Mom that something was wrong and Jordan was screaming and crying and I could not speak. Zach called 911 and I was sitting out the sink frozen. I understood what was going on I knew what everyone was saying and doing I just had no language.

I know the fire department came but I don't remember that part I remember being in the ambulance and the EMT giving me narcan. Narcan is the medicine they give people who have over dosed and since I still could not talk I could not tell him to get the hell away from me. I was mad as hell and then when I tried to speak I didn't recognize my own voice something had happened. I get to the hospital and everyone is talking about a stroke patient and I realized they were talking about me. Then I got scared.

What do you mean I had a stroke my speech was still.crazy and then my head was hurting and people where moving around me just talking. I got a CT scan and when I got back to my room my kids and my Mom were sitting there and a man on a computer screen was talking to me and I was so damn confused and scared and my Mom had to calm me down. He told me that I needed a drug called a TPA it is a massive blood thinner to break up clots to help with strokes. My blood pressure was 220/180 and it was getting worse.  I don't remember alot of this part my my Auntie came both my sister's came and  my niece and everyone had a look of oh shit what is going on.

I kept trying to sleep and was super confused everytime I woke up. Then I was told we have to transfer you to another hospital. I don't remember that I just remember the nurses and this bed that looked crazy. I got in this room and people just running around and talking and I could not respond. My sister came in the room after they had almost got put out of the hospital and my oldest sister Marlo had cussed a few people out they made sure I was ok and that the nurses were scared enough to not hurt me. It was the worse night of my life and I mean that very literally.

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Unknown said…
Our God is awesome and he can and has healed you in the name if Jesus. Praying for you Kim. Blessings
January 5, 2017 at 9:01 PM
Ursula Phillips said…
Praying for you Kim. God is a healer and he will protect and heal you always. Blessings on Blessings dear. Take care.
January 6, 2017 at 6:36 AM
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