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Time is a Theif

I have not blogged in a while because I really pushed myself for Thanksgiving and my body and Lupus pushed back. Let's just say that Kim lost that fight and truth be told I wanted to surrender and give up on the war. Please know that depression is real and it needs to addressed and dealt with. Stop wasting Time.

I was in my kitchen doing what I loved baking for KimsKakery and it hit me that time keeps on moving. My house is decorated with Christmas and all I could do was think about my Father who passed away almost 13 years ago on 12/23. I thought it feels like yesterday that I had both my parents on this side of heaven. He was my best friend my A1 my dude. I can recount the day he died minute by minute because when I woke up on 12/23 I had a Father living but by the time I went to bed he was dead. Time is a theif.

The older you get the more you realize that really no man knows the time or day that God will take you away from here. And what have you done in your dash?You know 1975-(dash) the day good says let's go.
I have lost so many people that I loved and that loved me. I have buried a parent and I man that I loved. I have buried all of my Grandparents one set my Mother's parents 3 months apart in the same year. Not to mention the Aunties and Uncle's who stood in the gap and loved me like my parents. Hell at this stage of my life I have lost friends too. Some to cancer (#cancersucks) and others to sudden tragic events or disease. Time really is a theif.

I have things that I thought would make me happy. I have Louis Vuitton, Coach (9), Dooney and Burke,Kate Spade, and MK. I have the sneakers in the color I want trust me I am special.  But I would give it all up for time. Time is a theif.

Five years ago I could have never seen my life as it is right now. I have not seen my 17 year old son since September. My daughter is changing and growing into a beautiful young woman right before my eyes. My Mother has also started to slow down never thought that would happen.

Time keeps moving 5 years ago I could climb steps no problem 5 years ago I did not know the feeling of my body totally shutting down or being in the hospital with a silent heart attack.  How and when did we get here. Time is a thief. When God gave Hezekiah back 15 years because He turned his back to the wall worshipped God in the midst of hearing that he was going to die. And in my foolishness I thought 15 years is nothing how stupid.

Time will keep moving make sure that you slow down and enjoy life and savor all that God has given you. Make sure you understand that when God's clock stops that is the end forever and ever ever.....EVER!!!!!!

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