Single Mom at War!

On the journey of doing this blog it has given me a sense of freedom about my life and my truth is just that. I have lived thru many things in the last 365 days that I had no idea I could live thru. My health has gone from where I didn't feel like trash everyday to now some days getting out of the bed takes a pain pill and an hour just to make it. But because I have kids and I am taking care of my Mother I have no choice but to make it happen. This was not supposed to be my life. I love being a Mother and it is truly the best thing that has ever happened to me. But this year my son has pushed me to the limits to wonder why I gave up my life to be his Mother. I am sure that being my son is not a piece of cake and that I can be the bitch from hell. But I have never done anything but make sure that he was always taken care of and provided for even if it was to my own detriment. If my kids had or have a need my life and health go on the back burner. Afte...

Hello everyone so with the effort to tell the true and be transparent I have been in my feelings for the last few days. It is such a horrible feeling and to make things worse I have am Lupus headache that makes me feel like shit. I am not going to make it cute or dress it I feel like I want to take my head off my shoulders and roll it down the street. I know why I am in my feelings. Facebook has this wonderful thing that it shows memories of what happened on this day years previous. And the other day it was the memory of my son being missing. I had no idea that one year later that this day would not be the worse day of my life. My son snuck out of my house and was gone for 3 days and I had no idea where he was or who he was with. I was a nervous wreck and my mind was running rampant. I had to call the police and we made flyers my church family helped pass out flyers almost 200 of them. He was at some friends of his house who Mother was fine with him being there with out talk to m...

Hello guys when I started this blog a few weeks ago it was meant to be a daily thing as a way to deal with my life the stress of life and to give me a place to vent if needed. I said that I would be very transparent in this blog because what good would telling a lie to water down my journey  for me or anyone who would read this blog. So I am going to tell you a story of a young 23 year old woman who was selfish and spoiled, mean outspoken and rude. I did just what I wanted to do whenever I wanted to. I never took any shit off of anyone. And then God told the best joke ever I got pregnant. I was scared and amazed and ashamed all at the same time. I never wanted kids or anything to do with kids. I had been raised by a single Mother my sisters both were single Mother's so I knew I could do it but the question was did I want to. Was I ready to make my life about this other person who I was going to have to love,guide and support. I cried many nights and pray just as hard. Zachary...

So here goes I am by no means a writer or a professional.  However I am a 40 year old mother of 2 teenagers that keep me on my knees in prayer. This blog is not meant to teach anyone anything it is a outlet for me. My goal will be to post everyday good and bad and to be transparent.  If I don't post it maybe a bad Lupus Day and shit no one wants to hear about I promise. Being a single Mother I have learned so many things and still have so much to learn. Kids have a funny was to change a selfish self-centered girl into a woman who forgot about herself so that her kids would never have to suffer. Now I am not going to tell you a fairytale or blow smoke up your assistance but I have believe that I am not the only Mother with two teenagers and suffering from a chronic disease and trying to make sense out of life. So we go to far Hello my name is Kim and I have a son who is 16 and a daughter who 13. I suffer from Lupus,congestive heart failure asthma and the new kid on the mixe...