It has been a minute since I have blogged and so much has happened. Some good some bad and yes some sad. It is not easy to put your life on the paper and then to let people read what my life has been like but I need it help me and I pray that it helps someone else. The last time I blogged it was about my Zachary and the life choices that he was making and how I have to learn to let him lead his life and to make the best. He is no longer living at home and this is permanent decision. He is 18 and he wants to live a life that I can not agree with so he is not here. My Mother use to say if you can't follow the rules and regulations of my house then you need to find somewhere else to live. It hurts me that I don't know where my son is living. But I do know that God will take care of him. As his Mother I carried him for nine months but he is in my heart forever. I pray everyday that God will restore our relationship and that he will look in the mirror and see the Zachary that I s...