So it was hard last week I was not feeling well and because of Lupus not feeling good is a daily battle. So I kept pressing and ignore my body. My son had run away again and I knew my stress level was on a million. So I did what Mother's do I put myself on the back burner. I had a silent heart attack. At 41 I had a heart attack I have been in Congestive heart failure for almost 3 years and now my heart is saying you gotta change. But do I really want to? I talked a good game and yes this blog was started to help someone who was going through some of the things that I was going through with my son. The running away the lies the stealing the disrespectful treatment and the blanton disregard for my rules. I feel like I failed my son in some shape form or fashion. I did everything I knew to do I changed my whole life for him and his sister. And now I don't even know my own son my 1st born the person who changed me. And I am having a hard time realizing that he doesn't want t...